If I asked you to say something negative about Butch, would you find it physically painful? Or would you do the job interview thing and say, "his only negative is that he cared too much."
Your deep and undying love for Butch is ... unusual. It seems more along the lines of the type of love you find between men who have shared a prison cell for many years than mere admiration. I applaud you sticking by your man, though, no matter the criticism. You're a true battle buddy.
But in the interest of full disclosure, he doesn't happen to have a restraining order against you, does he?