Its just one of those things that you have to accept as corrupt and move on, lest you lose your mind. If you've ever read the short story, "At the Mountains of Madness" it's something like that- you are faced with such an incomprehensible awful truth about the horrors of the universe that you will go insane. The NCAA now exists purely to ensure that schools can get free labor from players. It's made many, many people involved multi millionaires. Schools, coaches, administrators, TV executives, politicians all work together to keep the system in place. There is not a force on this earth that can reform the NCAA. The NCAA'S continuing existence is like the truth behind the Jeffrey Epstein situation. Its probably better for your mental health to remain in ignorance (or just forget what you know) and not ask questions rather than learn the facts and get sucked down into the abyss. It can get real depressing.